Why are we here?

i turned and said this to my sister in church last Sunday. With four children all over the place and trying to discipline quietly and lovingly was wearing on me. in fact last week the waves were crashing hard against me; wearing me to shreads, beating me down and i couldn't find the surface to get my breath. and with me having my weak moment brian has to go on a business trip for eight days. i escaped for the weekend to Amanda since she is so close now. i am happy for many reasons to have gone. it got me to focus on how i could help her and ease her life and forget about myself. i found the surface again and was resting on my beach while Jason and Amanda helped me with my children. sunday my van had a slight hiccup. i had to take it to a mechanic Monday morning. i was very reluctant to stay because amanda's in laws were coming to visit. so our time overlapped a bit. and i think the van hiccuped on purpose. Karen, Jason's mom, was able to share experience from her busy time as a mom. so many things she shared and we discussed were answers to my little prayers of "why are we here and fighting all this?" and "am i going to survive?!" every time i get smashed down by reality i need to find just one motherhood quote or talk to someone to help change my perspective than i have new-found strength to continue on a few more days til i need it again.

and i found more great stuff in "teaching, no greater call". i find myself dabbling in so many books while I'm nursing. i love nursing when i have to sit and be still. so page 131 "mothers as teachers" is the article. the whole thing is good but I'll share a piece or two that uplifted me today and I'm pondering for the next little while.

"The responsibilities of motherhood can seem overwhelming. it is important to remember that the Lord does not expect mothers to be perfect or to achieve an unrealistic ideal standard of homemaking. yet He does expect them to recognize and honor their divine role and to humbly do their best.

Elder Jeffery R. Holland said to the mothers in the church: "...there is nothing more important in this world than participating so directly in the work and glory of God, in bringing to pass the mortality and earthly life of His daughters and sons, so that immortality and eternal life can come tin those celestial realms on high" (Ensign, May 1997, 36)."

thoughts for me to ponder were to humbly do my best as a mother and i am the link between my children and God's goal.

and one more quote from Gordon B. Hinckley. "no responsibility is greater, no obligation more binding than that you rear in love and peace and integrity those whom you have brought into the world" (Ensign, Nov. 1993, 60).

Comments

Emily said…
I have SO had those moments. Hours. Days. Weeks. Thank you for opening up and sharing those beautiful thoughts you found.
Annie said…
Sometimes it's too easy to be discouraged and distracted...I know. I love those quotes, they help put us back on track and find the peace we need to carry on. Your a great mother, Don't let the "bad" spirit (as my kids would say) tell you any differently!
Anonymous said…
Hang in there...all of those tough days are so worth it for the good ones! It sounds like you found just what you needed to get you through though. Thanks for sharing. I think we all need to know we aren't alone in our feelings, when we feel like we are.
Anonymous said…
You're doin' a fine job!
Jen said…
What a great post. I know I've had many of those days. The quotes you shared were great.